I grew up as a Christian. It was the religion of my family assigned to me. There were Bibles in the house, we went to church occasionally, practiced the main religious holidays, and prayed in times of trouble. I was taught about Jesus, God and sin. Nothing about the Holy Spirit.
As a child, things happened which caused me to turn away from God and then, when all hope was lost, back to Him. This gave me a little more faith. This faith increased with each struggle that He delivered me through.
I began to map out my life in detail – what I would do, when and where. I did everything that was right by human standards; everything that people said you should do. But, it didn’t work out. Life happened to me. That is, the whole “life is unfair” speech. I was upset, angry, hurt and disappointed at not getting my way.
Last year, my Mommy began walking seriously with God and I just thought why not give it another shot, I had nothing to lose. God brought me through the mess that I created yet again, but this time I felt different. Instead of learning to know God by what others have said about Him, I would learn to know Him for myself. You see, I always knew that God existed, but I didn’t know Him. My relationship with Him was more of an acquaintance than a close friendship.
I have now accepted Jesus Christ in my heart as my saviour. I understand that this means:
- that I am a “new creation” in Christ (2 Corinthians 5:17 (CEB)); and
- that I am undergoing a transformation (2 Corinthians 3:17 – 18 (CEB)).
I also understand that this means that I am not going to wake up and be a completely different person, saint-like and all. The change is not automatic. God has a lot of work to do in me.
Romans 12:2 (AMP): “And do not be conformed to this world [any longer with its superficial values and customs], but be transformed and progressively changed [as you mature spiritually] by the renewing of your mind [focusing on godly values and ethical attitudes], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His plan and purpose for you].”
So now I am embarking on this marathon of transformation into the person that God wants me to be and I would be honoured if you could join me, engage with me and pick up a few things along the way together.